I've been so blind

How could I have not seen that I was the poisoned apple the one who made everyone sick, the one who caused so much pain. Yet I felt betrayed when I was the one who betrayed her first... what I'm getting right now is just what I had coming.  How could I've so blind not too see things rationally.  I must let the side of me go including those who I'd hurt I wish for their forgiveness but I don't dare too ask for nothing else.  I wish them well.   And I must learn to repent and also forgive myself.

I miss you

I know that you are watching over me from the sky but I can't help to miss you a lot.  Words can not describe how much I miss you right now.  I wonder if my life would be different with you in it.  Maybe I'll reach the day when you can see my happiness and myself acceptance :) I love you and will never forget about you.

I'm selfish, I'm lazy and I don't deserve love.

Those are the evils that plague my mind, that awful things that linger in my head and that don't let me succeed.  They're there to reminded me of the person that I can't left behind because I can't change who I am.  I feel frustrated and alone living in a world that won't let me belong.  Once step at a time they say,  but my road feels like there is no end. I sit here and wonder will a ever belong to this place?

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